Juggling Emotions 🤧


Some days are just DIFFICULT. Heaven and Earth may separate us today, but nothing will ever change the fact that we were friends. Today, is one of those days I have to take a deep breath every time I think of you cause I come so close to crying all over again. 

I miss visiting you and spending hours with you. Holding your hands was one of the best memories of my time with you. It meant I wasn’t afraid to stand up and be your watchman. 

I’m happy that you don’t have to live in pain or thinking when your time will be expired ….but you have left me with crazy emotions of both tears and joy. 

You made pain look bearable, and you carried a lot of weighty stuff making it look like wings. You were the epitome of courage, strength and grace. 

No one knows how many times I’ve sat in my room and cried my heart away. How many times I had to hold back tears the days I wanted to punch out those who bought you the most pain. I know you would have had a hearty laugh at me because you were secured in my love for you. 

Nobody knows the thoughts that passed through my mind when I get really sad thinking I’ve lost a friend. I told you many times that I was going to be with you to the end. I kept my promise to you, and you knew all along to the very end that I was there with you. 

There were many days I couldn’t tell you how I felt, but I’m thankful that I did my best to show you that I cared and how important you were to me. 

God allowed you to see your 47th Birthday and exactly one month – date to date December 10th – January 10th. 

My grief comes in waves – when I’m driving, when I wake up in the early mornings thinking of the times I called the nurses station to find out how you were doing – then it hits me all over again, that you have gone on to a far better place where death cannot threaten you or pain cannot hunt you down. 

My reward was knowing that you and I had a proven friendship of treating someone who can do no wrong. 

You and I believed in God even when He was silent. 

Your story is over, your chapters were read by all who knew you. It was a great story of a woman of incredible courage and strength. Thank you for the amazing memories you’ve left me with, and for allowing me to be your voice. 

My story is still being written and one of my chapters will always be about you. Love, your friend aka Auntie June 🕊 1969-2017 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾💥💥💥

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